It is an interesting time to be alive. Ebbing and flowing through a sea of emotional chaos aka The Covid Funk. We are in the midst of massive challenge, massive change and what feels like an expedited evolution. This current moment in time is creating our future and writing our history. Living through this pandemic has given me an opportunity for reflection. Encouraging me to look deeply into some questions like:

What is the most vital for my personal peace, health and happiness?
Who do I want to be?
What do I want to do with this gift of life?
What have I made a priority in this time in my life?
What do I miss the most?

My answers in some way shape or form all revolve around nature, family, kindness, adventure, and creativity. I have noticed that not only do the actual symptoms of Covid express themselves differently in each individual but so do the symptoms of what I called The Covid Funk. The Covid Funk is what we are all collectively experiencing whether we have contracted Covid or not and the list of the some symptoms include:

Uncertainty
Instability
Heightened emotions
Depression/Anxiety
Muscle Tension
Fatigue
Boredom
Dullness
Feeling Uninspired
Feeling Confined
Confusion
Socially Awkward

Personally, I’ve been ebbing and flowing through all of these symptoms which on some days can make the littlest task an extreme test. I am generally a very even keel, optimistic person. I have not lost my true nature to The Funk but it is most definitely showing me parts of myself I never knew existed. Though it is challenging I am aware that I am gaining emotional insight while building personal character and resilience.

In the days that I realize I am in the depths of The Funk I have to take it easy on myself by practicing compassion and patience. But at some point I have to break out of it. The top 3 remedies I have found are:

Being physically active outside
Being present for the change of light
Being in or around water

Water is a feminine element, it also the element of emotion and subconscious, of purification, intuition, mysteries of the self and compassion. This week I found myself in The Funk again so I took to the sea. I walked, I ran, I sat, I stood, I prayed, I listened. I felt the sand on my feet and the sun on my face and I was reminded that I am just a drop in a massive ocean, this experience is just a drop in all of time. It reminded me that everything is in a constant flux and not to hold on to tight because it is a waste of energy. I was also reminded that there is only so much I can do, to do what I can with kindness and to let the rest flow on. Then I did what I needed to do to break out of The Funk, I took the plunge. I jumped into the freezing cold mother waters and submerged myself in her energy. I shocked The Funk right out of my system, it didn’t stand a chance. As my entire body tingled, I felt alive, awake and free from it all for that moment in time.

I am so grateful I am still alive with my dear ones, able to jump in the ocean and write this blog right. I am blessed in so many ways and my heart goes out to those that have contracted Covid or lost their loved ones. May we take care of ourselves and one another in this time of hardship and understand that together we are one magnificent ocean.

Ebbing and Flowing Through Covid